You know what it’s like

I

You know what it’s like;
when you’re young, full of beans,
when each day’s like an open goal;
and you really believe your opinion matters.
You know what it’s like;
you want to change the world.
And there it is, you believe;
just waiting to be changed.
And, after a while, inevitably, perhaps,
you accept it’s going to take
a little longer than anticipated.
But that’s OK. You’re young. You have time;
all the time in the world.

II

Of course, then things happen; as they do;
but not always in the order
they were intended to;
you make adjustments, you reassess.
It’s a bit more complicated
than you thought, that’s all.
You maybe heard it once,
‘The world’s like a Gordian knot.’
And maybe you nodded;
but never knew what it really meant.
Now you know; and now you know it is.
It’s true, you were never really sure
where it was all leading but, somehow,
it’s not going the way you expected.

III

I guess you once had principles,
but that seems like a long time ago.
You once got outraged about workers’ rights,
the Palestinian cause, and famine in Africa;
yet all that concerns you now is your bank account;
and the money that’s not in it.
And so, slowly, it creeps up on you;
the nagging doubts multiply, uncertainity seeps in;
till you are confronted by the dim realisation
that, rather than you changing the world,
the world has, somehow, contrived to change you.
You know what it’s like.

Stuart McFarlane has spent many years, both abroad and in the UK, teaching English. In the UK this mainly involved teaching Esol to refugees and asylum seekers. He is now semi-retired and so can devote more time to writing poetry. He has had poems published in local magazines and online publications such as 'Borderless Journal', based in Malaysia and 'Culture Matters' and 'The Recusant', based in the UK. Read other articles by Stuart.