Medical Visit

Another day at the hospital.
A new department.
The clerk won’t speak louder
so I can’t hear her instructions.
She’s impatient
when I ask questions.
Sheet after sheet of paper,
detailed instructions.
I don’t have the concentration
to read all of it.
I hope I haven’t signed away
still functioning body parts.
I hand the clerk the papers.
She’s pleased to show me
what I didn’t fill in,
where I didn’t sign.
She takes my drivers license,
insurance cards, copies pictures.
Tells me the waiting period
is within an hour.
I ask, I thought reasonably,
‘Why did I make an appointment
for a special time
if I have to wait that long?
She points me to the waiting area,
without a word.
Her cold eyes follow me
until I’m someone else’s responsibility.

The waiting room is crowded.
Everyone looks unhappy.
Most are apprehensive.
I do not see a friendly face.
I do not think this place will help me,
but I must try
in the hope of a little more life
before conclusion.

Gary Beck has spent most of his adult life as a theater director and worked as an art dealer when he couldn't earn a living in the theater. He has also been a tennis pro, a ditch digger and a salvage diver. His original plays and translations of Moliere, Aristophanes and Sophocles have been produced Off Broadway. His poetry, fiction and essays have appeared in hundreds of literary magazines and his published books include 40 poetry collections, 16 novels, 4 short story collections, 2 collection of essays and 8 books of plays. Gary lives in New York City. Read other articles by Gary.