Watching Old Black And White Ealing Comedies Saved Her From Self Harming, Again

I cwtched* up close behind her,
feeling the waves crash deep within
her shaking, cut-up skin.
As she rocked, gently,
going nowhere but hammock-riding
her soul into a desperate lullaby.
I’m the only person she can stand
to have near when she’s fragile…
I never frown at her sighs,
and accept her flaws for what they are…
stumbling blocks she’s still out-riddling.
‘Kind Hearts And Coronets’
was just over two thirds through.
Each time Alec Guinness appeared
the edges of her mouth twitched, slightly.
It was a toss-up between ‘The Ladykillers’
or ‘The Lavender Hill Mob’ next?
Which isn’t fair… she’s teasing,
which means she’s starting to feel better,
for she knows ‘Whisky Galore!’
is my absolute favourite.
I tried gently tickling,
overstepped the mark… and retreated.
She relented, quickly, with an
“It’s alright, have it your way,
But, I’m going to pull up my hood,
turn around, bury my face into your chest
and just listen whilst you are watching it.”

* “cwtch” is a Welsh word and when translated into English means “cuddle”.

Paul Tristram is a widely published Welsh writer who deals in the Lowlife, Outsider, and Outlaw genres.  He wrote his first poem as a teenager following his release from the (Infamous) Borstal ‘HMP Portland’, and he has been creating Literary Terrorism ever since.  His novel ‘Crazy Like Emotion’ is available to purchase right here . Also his collection of shorter fiction Kicking Back Drunk ‘Round The Candletree Graves' is available to purchase at https://bookgoodies.com/a/B0DFMTSR4F Both books are published by Close To The Bone Publishing. Read other articles by Paul, or visit Paul's website.