This Is Not a Drill

It does not start with tanks.

      A book gone
      from the shelves
a whisper in the teacher’s lounge:
      not anymore
      (curriculum reform).

Maybe don’t say her name
      maybe don’t name the thing
            maybe
                  don’t
                        say
                              anything.

I’ve lived this before
      under another flag
      where my existence
      was Moharebeh
            enmity against God
and my gender
      a pre-existing condition.

[REDACTED] was imprisoned
      for teaching Kurdish children
            to say
                  I
                  am.

That’s all it takes for the lashes to become meritorious.

Here
      they just call it
            make great
call it
      we first
call it
      protecting children
            from
                  themselves.

[REDACTED] thought
      truth would save us
she didn’t make it
            to the epilogue.

      …a student
                 deported
      funding
                 pulled from literature
      a poem
            removed from the standardized exam
            for daring to say:
                  black
                  pronoun
                  genocide
                  even grief
                  (if grief doesn’t wear a uniform).

Listen—

      they don’t need tanks
          when we obey in advance
      They just need
            our scroll
                  our shrug
                       our silence
                             ____
                                   dressed as thoughts,

but I’m not here for that
      I’ve seen what happens
            when everyone thinks
                  they’ll be
                        the exception.

This isn’t
      the end
this is
      the question:
            Can you still speak?
            What will we name it
                  before it’s gone?
            Who will we become
                  if we forget?
            What will we risk
                  to remain a witness?

            The page is still open
            the breath is still yours
            someone might lean on a verse
            to find the way home.

Ava Homa is the author of Daughters of Smoke and Fire (HarperCollins & Abrams), a finalist for the William Saroyan International Prize and a Roxane Gay Book Club pick. Her short fiction collection, Echoes from the Other Land, was nominated for the Frank O’Connor International Short Story Award. Her poems, essays, and stories have appeared in Literary Hub, The New Statesman, The Literary Review of Canada, the Globe and Mail, and numerous anthologies. She has a master’s degree in Creative Writing and currently teaches at California State University, Monterey Bay, and is a 2023–24 California Arts Council Fellow. Read other articles by Ava.