A Youthful Void

I yelled like the city,
heavy burdened with weight
like the shoulders of Atlas.

I tried to sever the strings,
the threads that entangled identity.
I lived in each moment
a passive bystander,
active in lacking courage
to voice myself.
I fell victim to the taunting
tongues of teens,
measuring my worth
with their words.
I sauntered with open palms
begging for friendship
cringing inward
at the sight of rejection.

I yelled like the city,
heavy burdened with weight
like the shoulders of Atlas.

The wolves came,
they outnumbered me,
so I put on my wolf flesh,
cleaving to the breath
of belonging.
I settled for silence,
becoming a shell,
a seed without soil searching
for a place to grow,
but all I found was a barren land
of crowded streets.

I yelled like the city,
heavy burdened with weight
like the shoulders of Atlas.

Unsettled in my cloak,
I sought to rid myself
of the facade,

shedding self-pity
I yelled like the city,
descending into the den
to ascend like a god.

Matthew J. Lawler is a poet and Chicago native. He has been published in numerous literary journals, including, The Miscreant, Sick Lit Magazine, Caravel, Visual Verse, Unlost, Tuck Magazine, People's Tribune, forthcoming in an anthology( The Best Emerging Poets of Illinois) by Z Publishing. He lives to write and writes to live. You can find him on Facebook at www.facebook.com/matthewjlawlerpoet Read other articles by Matthew J..